Roundabout

      I had stopped myself at noon, amused
      On an abandoned track that moved
      Through a wood no longer used,
      Through waste acres of a watershed
5     Cloven by a regular runoff where
      Clarity was wildered by wild briars.
      Until a hidden water's hissing
      Showed that something else was missing,
      One never would have wondered 
10    That anything there had harkened
      At the juncture where briars darkened
      As if by deepness of the angle
      At the midmost of their tangle.
      Something moved beneath the plane
15    Where the interrupted track regains
      The far oasis of the wood,
      Something going crossways where I stood,
      Crossways to my onward motion.
      I stood without a blessed notion.
20    At the very precipice I paused, 
      And waited to see if what had caused
      Me to arrive there once
      Would cause me to hurry further on.
      I listened to what I could not see,
25    Water in the dirt continuously
      Spattering against such hazards
      As its pattering traversed.
      I spied the farther side, which seemed
      Indifferently like where I was indeed,
30    A wood moving on to wood,
      A leafy dark neither bad nor good.
      A tree, once proud upon its ridge,
      Lay translated into a bridge
      At my left, and the track repeated
35    Its pattern as it retreated
      Past the tree's, an oak's, fallen crown
      Stripped to wires on the farther ground.
      I put my foot, and it seemed
      To hold upon a mossy cloud
40    With just a warning creak or two
      That subsided like morning dew.
      Another step, another crack
      And I was airbourne along my track,
      And the whispered waters loudened
45    To an almost-roar unshrouded.
      This was something, then, a place
      Unusual in the closed-in space
      That gives woods a closet feel
      Of uncomfort, of bodies real
50    But mentally disposed of,
      The way we take our clothes off
      And refuse to see them wrinkle
      Any longer as real people.
      Had the slope been undermined,
55    Had the tree been dealt an ill-timed
      Blow by lightning an age before
      My feet had brought me to this shore?
      Whatever the history, I took
      A naturalist's close firsthand look
60    At the detail that feeds the mind
      When mind's to thinking first inclined
      And all the world's a wonder
      As perpetual as thunder.
      There's an art, a large art, of course,
65    Comprehended in just looking close.
      The moss had browned to gold, it seemed
      Unfed by any mist or stream
      Despite the pounding of the sound
      That made a pulsing all around
70    Centered in my ears. Still firm,-
      So then, just a dry summer's harm,
      No more, curable by summer storm
      Soaking live roots back to greenness,
      The dieback of a season's meanness.
75    An ant with an aphid hat hurried by
      Anxious of her fresh supply.
      Another step, another, and hushed
      Came the crumble where foot had crushed
      The intradose of a termite arch
80    (Found more often in a fallen larch);
      A colony of teeth in such bone-hard wood!
      Whether bored, or because they could,
      I could not know, and understood
      That even in a thing so small
85    I myself could not measure all
      By limits of my comprehension.
      But now, done with desecration,
      (Or, more optimistically,
      Aeration of the tree)
90    They left to found another nation
      With colonists from this way-station
      Who pack up their idea of home
      And take it with them where they roam.
      And now the whole tree was hollow,
95    And houseless hoot owls inward followed.
      Also into this interesting
      Emptiness, came bees without a sting,
      Carpenter bees who hustled and tore
      Termite tunnels to a larger bore
100   For their solitary parlors
      Conveniently near both briars
      And water. Who'd've thought there'd be
      So much of life in so dead a tree?
      I had gone down upon my knees
105   In my investigation, pleased
      To spend my day in something other
      Than myself. I wondered whether,
      As I stood again on what stood 
      No more, if I should include
110   What was father on out there
      Now I had come thus far to stare;
      My thoughts surrounded me like fog
      In the middle of the ruined log,
      As unsteady of my footing there
115   As unsure of my going.... Where?
      I peered a step just past my place
      And conjectured farther on a pace;
      The path behind was twice the gauge
      As the dwindled path on the next stage.
120   It seemed that most upon this track
      Had come this far to double back.
      Well, I never have had more regard
      For that stepper Kiekegaard
      Than for my other walkers in the wood,
125   Intending to walk on as they should,
      Instead walking only as they do.
      I kicked a little nothing from my shoe
      And made my balance come and go,
      Unsteady and unstable how to go,
130   Uncertain and unsure how to know,
      Kicked a something from my other shoe,
      And in the end continued onward, too,
      As few had chosen here to do,
      As all who are not only bones may do.
135   To keep unlost, as doubt to doubt
      You wander roundabout your route,
      Simply do not doubt your doubt.

 

From the collection "Assembling the Earth"

Written by Gregg Glory [Gregg G. Brown]

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