Banquet

      Sick ink 
      vomited belly up on the throw rug
      as if I had forgiven it,
      the swallowed ball 
5     of my poisonous poem, a loaded ode 
      to limitlessness and light-
      What trash!  
      as if the sky- vapid and superior in its  imperial blues
      didn't know how to bite!
10    Mistakes, mistakes! 
      The pen's a miracle of mayhem, wild slips
      of a wrist once slitted;
      the bleeding, careering nib,
      a molt of details in the schizophrenic flow:
15    my mangy life,
      my frozen embryo 
      carelessly cast from the shelf, unlidded 
      and palely little.
      The cornflower fists 
20    ache to begin, the watery lungs 
      two skinned, amniotic fish.
      A bonfire, a bonfire! 
      Something huge and ruinous with real red in it! 
      That's what goes, what really goes
25    with this stone decor, 
      this face hung in a mirror slashed to tears. 
      Heat, heat
      anything to exhaust 
      this caustic blank in my being, torn calendar-
30    Journals, drawn loves, alien lines
      poems mouthed from poems 
      -dead-weight papers pushed to a death heap
       a Jew harvest at Dachau-
      Perfect things 
35    as final as a corpse, 
      ashes to ashes.
      The matchsticks itch 
      to finish it.
      Irritable Rubicon  
40    of lava, language vulcanized on language, 
      I cross you languidly. 
      I am nearly asleep 
      in the oxygenless air. I am tired, tired, 
      tired of curses, tired of cures
45    tired of the alphabet.
      The wall, infinite sheet, 
      turns intense as an oven, the nails  
      must be melting...
      And here I stand 
50    awash and exhausted, perfumed in the rolls  
      of corpse-smoke, 
      words burned to whorls. 
      Too tired to live, to die, to anything 
      kilned in skin.

 

From the collection "The Soft Assault"

Written by Gregg Glory [Gregg G. Brown]

More information available on gregglory.com.