Oct 302013
 

When grief has broken us, the link between what we want of life and what life delivers is strained; daily events take on the tenor of the unreal; dreams grow into rumors of the other realm, and the mind becomes a point of focus where invisible whispers enter the verity of daylight. Mary Todd Lincoln became grief-distracted by the death of her son, Willie, during the time the Lincolns lived at the White House. Rumor and witness conspired to declare her mentally ill or dangerously depressed at this time. Lincoln himself adopted an ever more fatalistic turn of mind about his eventual assassination, the destiny of both his presidency and the nation seemingly carved in marble gravestones. Both of the Lincolns saw and felt Willie’s presence in the White House, hearing his fleet footsteps run down empty corridors, or experiencing other eerie manifestations. Mary Todd became obsessed with wanting to contact Willie and held s

Oct 302013
 

Fats Waller is, for me, an emblem of the creative artist’s response to oppression. First and foremost, what I feel most strongly about Fats is that he is the marvelous, mischievous, creative American Mozart of Tin Pan Alley. He won’t be defined or stopped by anyone. Shakespeare wrote reams of subversive plays that drew implicit parallels to what he thought of the mismeasure and misrule of his own times and society. In Shakespeare, there is an education in our own humanity, if we are open to our own feelings of being alive. The roots of jazz and the blues have the same basic imperative: feel. Understanding is secondary to life, experience is primary. Even if one’s feelings are despair and ennui, as in the broken marches of the Blues, feel them; and, once the gates of perception have been cleansed by honestly feeling what you feel, one must inevitably do more than just feel them, one must sing them. Art is a moral response to being alive. The world is a forest of varying experiences–from the soft subtle Georgia breeze that tinkles against the poor man’s bottletree making a random angelic choir in a dirt yard, to the ‘strange fruit’ of the famous blues tune that describes lynchings in the American South, with dead men and women hanged for no more reason than the color of their skin. Despite such terror and such despair, Waller’s Falstaffian joy for life is as immense as the sun; and that joy bulls through all the bullshit that burdens us.

Oct 302013
 

Dance appears to us in perfected memory as in a dream. The words of neighbors and lovers fade, and only their faces remain; the memory of a loving look, the addendum of a touch. How does dance have such a vivifying power–to remain when all else falls away? The body remembers its emotions; that which moves us emotionally makes us, literally, move. The result of all calculation, and every accident, every spasm or hapless spontaneous gesture, is action; in action, we are revealed. Poetry, as performance, is action; as speech it is famously full of falsity, foil and counterfoil. In some tribes, a poet’s testimony is not allowed in court–poets are considered such expert and persuasive liars. In our own day and age, car salesmen and lawyers (with congressmen running a close third) are our exemplars of dubious speech. But, in the art of dance, however many hours have been toiled away at practice, however ancient the template the ballet or kabuki dancer follows, there lies revealed the truth of the human body in motion, the athletic fact. And this is somehow akin to memory and dream; the power of those totems to remain real to us when all else fades.

Oct 302013
 

There’s a grand old ballad song called “The Three Ravens,” and a Scottish version of it known as “The Twa Corbies.” In each of these songs, ravens in a tree are discussing where they will scavenge their next breakfast. They talk of a brave knight who has been slain, but they cannot get to him because his hound and his hawk and his leman guard him. “The price of liberty is eternal vigilance,” as Thomas Paine is said to have said; the dead knight’s guardians fulfill this role. Tragically, at the end of his life, the last warrior against both the Mexican and American forces’ takeover of the American West died as a reservation-prisoner far from his home; his one regret was that he didn’t “fight to the last man.” For me, Geronimo has always possessed something of the strength of Hercules. He is firm in courage beyond the known. He is brave without an exit. In language, poetry is the inquisitor we cannot evade; the inquisitor whose scars are left on us in tattooed whorls of artistry. The creation of cultural earworms is a cruel and necessary task. Who, besides the poor social outcast of the penniless poet, will do it?

Oct 302013
 

“Sun’s declining ray,” a reference to the old hymn by Charles Coffin, Hymni Sacri, 1736:

As now the sun's declining rays
At eventide descend,
So life's brief day is sinking down
To its appointed end.

Lord, on the cross Thine arms were stretched,
To draw Thy people nigh;
O grant us then that cross to love,
And in those arms to die.

All glory to the Father be,
All glory to the Son,
All glory, Holy Ghost, to Thee,
While endless ages run.
Oct 302013
 

Onward, world. “The Revolution was effected before the War commenced. The Revolution was in the minds and hearts of the people.” So old John Adams maintained. Such revolutions of perspective in our own day were most deeply effected in the Civil Rights Movement and the landing of the first man on the moon. (The cultural shift of the radical sixties Left is an older game of social priorities that clatter back and forth between the poles of received authority and gamesome anarchy.) All the astronauts speak movingly of a shift in their sense of things when they see the “big blue marble” for the first time. Lewis Thomas likened the globe to a single living cell, its parts are so deeply interdependent; all human endeavor and wisdom balancing like a drop of dew on a single blade of grass, “glad and grim/observant and atheist held in a single prayer.” This essentially poetic insight, though, is a gift adrift when we refuse to see in it both possibility and humility: our smallness and our greatness at once.

Mar 202013
 

 


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A note concerning the basic arc of this book of poems–to re-register grace and freedom as America’s primary metier.

Freedom breeds elegance. Not the inbred elegance of aristocracy, where beautiful ladies eventually come to resemble their Russian wolfhounds. Nor, simply, the truculent elegance of that sly Benjamin Franklin who, as ambassador to the French Court, refused to bow before King Louis the 16th or doff his coonskin cap.

Freedom breeds the desire to create one meaningful action with your entire life–the effortful elegance of the artist that James Joyce defined as the willingness to gamble your whole life on the wrong idea, a bad aesthetic, or, it may be, a genuine triumph. And America has created, and can still create, a unique scale of opportunity for such elegant “throws of the dice,” as Mallarme might say. A natty Fred Astaire (originally Austerlitz), gliding with the ease of an ice skater as he backs Rita Hayworth (a gal from Brooklyn) into immortality to a tune penned by the jewish Jerome Kern in an industry patented in the U.S.A. is but one example of the scale of that opportunity.

When you are free to do anything, a desire grows in the breast not to do just anything, but to do the best thing–and that is an aesthetic dilemma. The mere accumulation of capital, or the arbitrary exercise by minor government regulators of petty power, are two classic examples of the desire for a meaningful expression of life-status that lack the aesthetic instinct. Such timid ambitions grow most strongly where the full range of light is narrowed, and the blossom of selfhood must twist around corners to open its ruby glory in a thinning patch of sunlight.

Gregg Glory

March, 2013

Come, My Dreams

Come gather round me, multitudinous dreams 
That in the dim twilight are murmuring soft; 
Come lay by my head in the pillow-seam; 
Come carry my freighted heart aloft.

O, I would dare dream as few men dream
Beyond the cruel cudgel of the strong,
Beyond the purpled tapestries of is and seems
Hung before my eyes, beyond cold right or wrong.

 

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Jan 312013
 

Mustering trust in “wild, whole-page insertions” to read-between-the-lines of

Dissembling Semblance

Lie there, my art. — Prospero

1
Ho-ho!  From out his party grave, up-popped
The skeletal self that Tenor'd tamed.
Dewy longings drift half-wet, in ziggurats,
Down the dirty sticks of his dry fact,
Lending a silver-inlay to his polar bones.
Desire sniffs for roses through groutless nose-holes
And musty wines slalom a gorgeless gob.
Nothing of the lover, of the brother
Lingers here.  I stick four mournful fingers
Through his clackers for a tongue, wagging
Idiot digits in mime Shakespearean.
No Yossarian voice, Horatio, ensued.
No Ophelian sonnets rained in daisy-chains.
Lipless ivories inferred infernal grins.
Tongueless Tenor Semblance, disinterred,
Master-man and mirror-me, was DEAD!  And I?

2
I am no Poet-Frankenstein, evoking souls
From wounded earth.  For me, a hole is a hole
Is a hole.  Love caressed, love cupped, love cuffed
Suckles living teats, not this bony xylophone.
Still, I loiter here half-longingly and toe
Pale parabolas of a pelvis furred with mold.
I, too, shall one day come undone, un-
Buttoned before the mawkish gawkers in the wood,
Dining on no niceties but dusty praise.
And you, and you.  Bluets brush my boots,
Sans author in penless processional.
Tallied Tenor here, pure loss, is less and less,--
A condensate escaped in Gobi air.
What last farewell, or goodbye cry, can I
Cachinnate for such luckless kin?
Feral fate!  The day, the hour, is late.

3
Though crass and cursed and cloistered
In a hole, my man of clay, who I made,
Unmade me.  Iffy gift!  Solitude still knows:
To live our lithest days in sackcloth is a sin.
My vampire mirror blings, bingeing on blanks.
I miss the mischievous elf I myself had minted,
Wry coinage of a brain love-benumbed.
Impresario of puppets, piccolo fish
Waving in a world wigged with sideways seagrass,
I command my scarecrow scalawag, Tenor
(Whom I marched off to death, alas) a last
Resurrection reappearance imagineer.
Coffin-lid, crack!  Earth erupt and burp-up
Voodoo me, vanished voice and vair ermine.
Pffft!  And see, through misty mazy day,
In his water-wings and goggle-gear. . . .

4
"Irksome apparition!  Clavicle and skull
But prank the picked-out polychromes of life
More sullied dull. Pink is less pricked than pinky.
How can twanged canaries out-crow sepulchres?
Muddy mausoleums high-rise our tipping tropes.
No quip out-kids a skeleton's ghastly grin."
So I solemnized in my preacher's best.
But cut-rate Tenor in his rotted tux
Retailed another fable, made gritty
By eternal Time's half-sandy clasp.
"Birds of paradise in their jungle mung
Whistle fluent waltzes more queer than square.
When kisses come twitting between the stars,
Their ache is more than mausoleums are.
The softest-rose of live lips out-quips
Clown-corpse midgets and their brazen cars. The curds
Of life are sacred, but only as we sip."

5
So I sat in puzzlement complete.
Head-hanging, feet-dangling, I weeped.  I kicked
Spic hobnails against the grave's gouged walls.
I did not want to hum, or ham, the mournful measure
A mealy mouth had found.  Must I have more to say?
To do, to be?  Was wishing up to me?
Argent star and pentecostal ghost!  It was.
The prolog past was mere evaporate because.
I zipped upon the slipping ice, slouch-hatted,
As I myself alone, floe to floe.
Tenor was my made-up man, my solo ghost;
Of his fragile form, I was holy host.
Vital tailor!  Sledding immortality but slips
Us in our heart-stitched skins again.
Thus we see, beyond Death's batty beam,
Is is brighter than the vim of seems.

 
6
How, in all this claustric Ought, ought I
To utter and confess my consummate
"Ow to Joy"?  Life is pain, and fidgets
As it sings.  Dr. Formaldehyde in his lab-coat,
Peering in, thumbs an icy stethoscope to quiz
All coughs, all crimes.  What Rabelaisian
Parable am I in?  What sly reply does this
Inquisitive pin in my inflated thigh
Giggle to confide?  None, none.
All my splendid spillages funnel down to One:
"Paradise is simple as the simple dew.
Blond Life, raw, unadorned,
Is apple enough when we feel adored.
--Settle quick the pipping kettle, Kate,
And kiss the kittens twice.--Unintended
Heaven whistles wettest, when we forget

Ourselves."

Gregg Glory
2010

The Vim of Seems

When academy was a euphemism for ‘brothel,’ those who worked there were called academicians.~~Euphemania

I doubt indeed if the crude circumstance of the world, which seems to create all our emotions, does more than reflect, as in multiplying mirrors, the emotions that have come to solitary men in moments of poetical contemplation.~~W.B. Yeats

The title, “Dissembling Semblance,” begins with a pun on dis-assembling, taking apart into its component parts–a touch of an audial shadow of dismissing–and the regular meaning of dissemble (to disguise or conceal a feeling or intention). Such puns are the first of many disguises in this follow-on poem. This poem follows “For Tenor Semblance, Who’s Dead,” which is a poem full of evasions about identity; it even raises the doubt if the protagonist of the poem, the eponymous Tenor Semblance–to who’s wake the reader is summoned–is either alive or dead! Equally, the “Semblance” of the title both names the returning hero and denies that that is who we are talking about since this is a dissemblance, and not a likeness. The greasepaint on the putative corpse of the potentially dead-and-alive-at-once Schrodingnarian Tenor Semblance is thick–perhaps even an inch thick, my fellow vaudevillian thespians. You see, the poem is already assembling some the tropes of the theater, where one dissembles in order to better resemble the chosen, created character invoked by the playwright. But, in this scenario, who wields this mightier-than-death, swordier-than-a-sword pen? Who is the poet behind the curtain? Let’s investigate…. Follow the sleuth with his slouch hat and wacky magnifying glass which shows only his own enlarged and swimming eyeball!

Lie there, my art.–Prospero

This epigraph is from Shakespeare’s play The Tempest, where the speaker, Prospero, is a magician-wizard who has been shipwrecked and is the sole master of a forlorn isle, whose only other human inhabitant is his daughter, Miranda. Prospero is talking with Miranda, and lays aside his mastery and his magic cloak to come clean with her.

PROSPERO
                             'Tis time
I should inform thee farther. Lend thy hand
And pluck my magic garment from me.
             [Miranda helps Prospero remove his cloak.]
Lie there, my art.--Wipe thou thine eyes. Have comfort.

So, perhaps the author of “Tenor Semblance” is finally going to come clean with us and tell us the truth of his creation, his self-son, and we can wipe the webs of glamour from our story-woven eyes. Despite the terror and trauma of Death, there’s really no need to cry. Our powerful and trustworthy author is going to give us the straight dope at last. The hidden context of our lives will be lovingly revealed from on high; our past will be made sensible, and our present comforting. The author, like Prospero, is going to set aside his bag of tricks–Felix the Cat will become just a putty-tat in need of a lap once more. He must be tired of the footlights; he must need some simple, human ear to which to confess after his endless years of manic prestidigitations. Then again, in The Tempest, the scene where Prospero lays aside his cloak momentarily is Act 1, Scene 2, and a shipwreck full of sailors from his hometown have just crash-landed into his hand-crafted Fantasy Island.

1
The number one. Om, er, or perhaps “um” in this case. The stanzas are numbered, like scenes or acts, creating an extra level of proscenium-like distance between the vignettes enacted, or the tableaux vivants tidily presented.

Ho-ho!

What is the point of poetry anyway? Does this multiform monster have a singular purpose? And, given that its form is relentlessly verbal, can mere verbiage give expression to that purpose? Can an eye examine its own process of sight? Can an ear hear its essence? Is there a divergence between essence and purpose? Is purpose imposed, while essence has more of the character of helpless self-expression, a fountain mooting through its range of motion without a chance for meaningful choice? Are poets born or made? “Ho-ho!” Welcome to the funhouse of life, death, and everything. Evidently the comedy club that had been built in Tenor’s grave is still in operation in this first verbal volley–less of a word and more of an essential upwelling, an expression without syntactical content. A something… surprising.

                 From out his party grave, up-popped
The skeletal self that Tenor'd tamed.

We have the “party grave” of the first poem’s epigram incorporated here into the first line of the follow-up poem: the “dirty jokes” include the rude humor of the weedy burial place as well. There can be no doubt that we are at the same graveside, discussing the same Tenor Semblance as before. This time, Tenor isn’t content to lie within his “four occasion walls” (the four dimensions of x, y, z, and time). The “skeletal self,” the dead man, the ghost, of Tenor pops up, perhaps like one of those toy coin boxes with the glowing bone hand that snatches coins into the coffin-like bank vault from which it emerges. Is this poem turning into B-movie zombie-flick fare? Never fear, Tenor’s here! Indeed, this is no ordinary skeleton, but the one that “Tenor’d tamed.” Even the tough double-T, double-D sounds, which may indicate how tough the taming struggle had been, also show the completeness of the mastery over death. Like the phrase “locked tight,” there can be little doubt of eternal containment here, can there?

Although dead, and indeed no more than a skeleton now, the imagery suggests an on-going tie with life. “Dewy longings,” “musty wines,” all cling to the “dry fact” of Tenor’s skeleton. Although dead, “desire sniffs.” The boundary, the barrier between life and death is muddy at the edge of this man-made portal-hole to the beyond. The connection between living desire and the constructive impulse toward civilization is alluded to in the description of the dew-drops on Tenor’s bones tracing a “ziggurat” shape–one of the oldest kinds of monumental architecture ever constructed; many mausoleums, holy sites, temples, and other buildings are ziggurats–the fore-runner of the Egyptian pyramid.

Nothing of the lover, of the brother
Lingers here.  I stick four mournful fingers
Through his clackers for a tongue, wagging
Idiot digits in mime Shakespearean.

The poet, visiting Tenor’s grave, plays with the skeleton as Hamlet did with Yorick’s skull. In the case of Tenor Semblance and his “dirty jokes,” turn-about seems fair play. Robert Frost claimed poetry was a kind of “fooling with words,” and here we see just such a jest-fest going on. The poet makes Tenor talk by waggling his fingers where Tenor’s tongue used to be. No affectionate kissing as Hamlet did with Yorick, no childhood sentimentality–just jokes and the hard facts of demise. The “idiot digits” of the poet’s fingers write no love sonnets, give no voice to any supposed creation of Tenor or the poet; at best, the poet can only “mime” a lame imitation of Shakespeare. “O O O, that Shakespearean rag,” as T.S. Eliot might say. This poet is kind of an inept schlep. Do we trust him, as Dante trusted Virgil, to guide us into the mysteries beyond the grave?

This would all be gallows humor, but our fellow Tenor is beyond the gallows now. The superstitious caution to “speak no ill of the dead” is blithely ignored. The poet is juggling torches in a matchstick factory. Will there be a price to pay for his flippancy?

No Yossarian voice, Horatio, ensued.
No Ophelian sonnets rained in daisy-chains.
Lipless ivories inferred infernal grins.

Evidently not. Horatio is conjured to hear the poet’s Horation oration, but Tenor himself remains mute. Not so much as the jokey voice of that modern Yorick from Joseph Heller’s novel Catch-22 pipes up. In Catch-22, you had to be crazy to get dismissed from the Army; but applying for dismissal on grounds of insanity showed that you were sane; this was the catch-22 of the title. Doubtless some of this circular logic applies to poet and Semblance in this graveyard comedy. The main character in the novel, Yossarian, is basically a coward who scrambles with paranoid frenzy to stay alive in wartime. This same cowardice is often assigned to Hamlet, and there’s a nice talk that Robert Frost gave wherein he distinguishes between “escape” and “pursuit” in terms of discerning motivations and their, as I’d put it, inherent nobility or lack thereof. For my money, Hamlet transitions from escape (from reality, responsibility and death) through most of the play until he embraces his tragic chance and begins to actively pursue death–finally winning through to the fatal showdown that immortalizes him as an exemplar of his timeless human dilemma. Frost says, in justifying his preference for pursuit over escape, that “I’ve got to have something that’s a little aggressive, and that’s so with a poem, too.” I’ve always thought the gravedigger scene in Hamlet more aggressive than hilarious: the humor digs at the characters and won’t let them look away from life’s fatal outcome. It hones Hamlet’s conscience. That’s the use of the unrelenting humor in “Dissembling Semblance” too, I’d say; it’s aggressive, pushy. Certainly, the high drama and romance of Ophelia’s burial scene where Hamlet out-does Laertes’ love for his own sister is out of the question. Instead, all we get is the answerless “grin” of Tenor’s skull.

The very basic question left unanswered in “For Tenor Semblance, Who’s Dead” is answered in an all-caps affirmative in “Dissembling Semblance.” Tenor is, like the Wicked Witch of the East, not only “merely dead… but really most sincerely DEAD,” although no Munchkin coroner is on hand to issue an ornate death certificate. Indeed, there’s no Horatio, no Ophelia, no battling Laertes, not even a goofy grave-digger to witness the unnamed poet’s exploration of death and identity–his contemplation of his deceased “mirror-me.”

     2
I am no Poet-Frankenstein, evoking souls
From wounded earth.

The poet disclaims his powers of creation, even the morose, mangled powers of a Halloweenesque Dr. Frankenstein. He’s no stitcher of zombies, no fanatic trying to dissolve the border between life and death. Indeed, such human hubris would “wound earth.” I’d take that claim with a grain of salt, though, as the poet plays on Tenor’s “bony xylophone” of a skeleton. If not a Dr. Frankenstein, perhaps he is at least some sort of dusty archeologist seeking to imaginatively recreate the creature he had so elaborately eulogized. But, the poet claims to be interested in life and love, the “living teats” of being vibrantly alive.

Still, I loiter here half-longingly and toe
Pale parabolas of a pelvis furred with mold.

The poet then questions his own pro-life claims. He finds himself fascinated by the borderlands and loiters at the graveside “half-longingly.” This echoes Keats’ “half in love with easeful death” from his “Ode to a Nightingale.” The poet is winking at Mr. Weeks’ criticism. The pelvis, locus of the generative organs procreation, are “furred with mold” rather than the short-and-curlies live lovers commingle.

Even while examining the bones of Semblance, the poet doubts which reality is the more supreme–the bald, dread facts of “tallied Tenor,” reduced to death and thus “pure loss,” or Tenor’s fading story told in “For Tenor Semblance, Who’s Dead,” through which we were first introduced to Tenor. This current poem, after all, is an act of human speech as well, and is dissipating its vaporous cry. Tenor’s story seems to be not much more than an evaporating “condensate in Gobi air”–a temporary puff of syllables that cannot last. Every thing that is becomes a was, another exemplar of “pure loss” and “less.”

What last farewell, or goodbye cry, can I
Cachinnate for such luckless kin?

What eulogy can be said over the bones of a story? Do we weep for those who have gone, for their actual departure, or do we cry because the memories of them still remain with us? Is grief really a selfish self-memorial? Tenor seems dead in reality and in story, and our memories are not to be trusted as objective because they are self-involved. We cannot say goodbye, for there is nothing of the actual Tenor left to address–nothing, that is, but our own memories. Indeed, such utter annihilation seems a “luckless” lot.

Feral fate!  The day, the hour, is late.

As with Shakespeare, although there is death and shaped language aplenty, there is a definite lack of religion, of appeal to outer (or upper) authority to untangle the buried umbilical that had led to Tenor’s once-upon-a-time putative birth. Surely his death, his skeleton, is poof enough that he was once alive. The poet, in his decided lack of religious reference, wants to take on the eternal troubles the bible blabs about for himself, on his own, with only his own ugly imaginings for revelation and guide. There will be no angels to wrestle with in this grudge-match to discern ultimate meaning. To hide or not to hide, that is the question. And an altar, let alone an outsized Oz-God, would be too tempting a curtain to quiver behind for the slender identity of the poet to resist. Thus, for all the graveyard stage-props of this poem, it remains a mostly pagan meditation. (It is interesting to note in this connection, however, that the poet, Gregg Glory, had read aloud the third stanza of “For Tenor Semblance, Who’s Dead” at his mother’s memorial service. Even then, a pagan pastor.)

3

The numeral three (3). Sacred in many traditions, a magic number that encompasses the Holy Trinity of God, Jesus, and the Holy Ghost. Is there an implication that a third member of the grave “party” will make an appearance? We have two members already: the poet and Tenor’s skeleton (the memory of Tenor living, if he was ever more than imaginary–although if “imponderably” imaginary, that’s as good as any reality). Who shall be the third that walks behind?

Even though Tenor Semblance is no more than a dead body and a (perhaps fictive) memory, still he has a hold on the poet, and indeed so parlously has plumbed the poet’s depths of identity that Tenor has “unmade” the poet, changed and perhaps even dismembered how the poet understands himself as a self. An “iffy gift” indeed. Still, the poet holds onto the sensations of life, and states his intention to not live that life staring eternally into a grave. This poet doesn’t want to lie atop Tenor’s make-believe tomb chanting “Annabelle Lee” to the full moon until his social security checks start to kick in. He does not want to share in Hamlet’s dim guilt at being alive whilest his father moulders, living his “lithest days” in “sackcloth” like a penitent sinner.

My vampire mirror blings, bingeing on blanks.
I miss the mischievous elf I myself had minted,
Wry coinage of a brain love-benumbed.

The idea of the speaker of the poem being the poet in persona propere is played with here. Having been critiqued as being too-much the Joycean composer trimming his fingernails from a cloudbank as he looks down on his characters strolling and unrolling their lines, the speaker-poet checks for his existence in a mirror (recall that Tenor Semblance is his “mirror-me”) and finds that–like the mythical vampire–he has no reflection. Perhaps the poet doesn’t exist here in his created world! He needs to interact with his character Tenor in order to see himself. It is this creative exploration of reality, identity and harassing character that lets us see who we are–not only in interior intention, but in imaginative fact. Tenor, the “mischievous elf,” is described as the creation of a loving and lonely brain–perhaps a reference to the disordered romanticism of Keats’ dreamland.

The speaker as poet is an “impresario of puppets” in that he creates characters and voices for his poems. “Impresario” is a claim to be a master at such creation, and this lavish claim is followed up by an extravagant example of the kind of outrageous metaphors in which the poet deals. Like “piccolo fish” that blend in with the seagrass, the poet’s creations seem very real; this reality is then metamorphosed further into a “wig” (perhaps a British judge’s wig). No transformation is too zany for the impresario’s imagination to encompass or create.

The poet then goes on to invoke the “resurrection” of Tenor, his “scarecrow scalawag.” This is described as a Disneyfied act of “imagineering,” which is some Hollywood-style mix of engineering and imagination. Perhaps there’s more of Dr. Frankenstein in our poet than he understands, or is willing to admit. To be resurrected, one must have lived before and indeed have been truly dead, as the first stanza of the poem established. Of course, resurrection is famously a matter of faith rather than science, so, as in “For Tenor Semblance, Who’s Dead,” we can’t be one hundred percent certain that any Tenor who can be resurrected was duly and truly dead. There is an ambiguity introduced that only our own inner exploration of our own identities via our own hand-made “voodoo” dolls can resolve to our personal satisfaction. Knowing the author rather well, I would hazard to guess that he might even think of this as an on-going process inaccessible to any final resolution. There’s always another layer of the onion to peel away, more mist to fan to clarity in the fens of self, more mazes to zigzag through, more past to uncover tomorrow than we can remember today.

In the fourth stanza, the poet directly addresses the dead man–with a tinge of fear, much as Hamlet upon the battlements of Elsinore, where both the guard Marcellus and his school pal Horatio refer to the ghostly king (as the poet here calls his reanimated dead one) as an “apparition.” In this case, the “ghost” is referred to sarcastically as an “irksome apparition”–which includes a premonition of all the “icks” in the line “Pink is less pricked than pinky.”[1] The poet makes his argument for the relatedness of death and the imagination; how the ultimate character of death “out-crows” the more limited living “canaries” like the poet (a singer himself, like the canaries). Death spices and raises-up the limited reach of imagination’s “tropes.” Imagination proposes, and Death disposes. Death is the final arbiter of the meaning the imagination creates: “no quip out-kids a skeleton’s ghastly grin.” The language is still that of the aggressive gallows humor that has saturated the poem thus far.

By this stanza, Tenor’s resurrection has been effected, at least in part. Is he as “rotted” as his burial tux? Or has he been fully restored like the leprosy-lousy Lazarus? The boundary of death has been breached; Tenor is emphatically not the poet as they hold this somewhat contentious wit-battle.

"Birds of paradise in their jungle mung
Whistle fluent waltzes more queer than square.
When kisses come twitting between the stars,
Their ache is more than mausoleums are.
The softest-rose of live lips out-quips
Clown-corpse midgets and their brazen cars. The curds
Of life are sacred, but only as we sip."

Here we have Tenor Semblance, the artificial spokesman for the eternal twin realities of Death and the Imagination piping up for the partial, obscure, incomplete “jungle mung” of life. Tenor, a rogue representative from beyond the bounds of martality stands up and insists that life, “more queer than square,” is “more than mausoleums are.” Life requires no imaginative or abstract justification. It is itself, and it is enough, whether we accept that truth or not. Tenor is significantly different from Hamlet’s father’s ghost, who returns demanding revenge and more death for his wrongful poisoning. Tenor demands that the poet give up his “brazen cars,”–an image out of Yeats’ “Who Goes with Fergus?” that has the main character spend his life looking for Faeryland. Life, made of Wallace Stevens’ fragile “concupiscent curds,” only maintains its sanctity while we actively engage in it, taste it to its fullest, sip by sip.

5

So I sat in puzzlement complete.
Head-hanging, feet-dangling, I weeped.  I kicked
Spic hobnails against the grave's gouged walls.

Confused beyond endurance, the poet has been dismantled by his “mirror-me.” Undoubtedly, this is an unexpected result. Wasn’t this graveside visit supposed to settle Tenor’s hash? And yet, it is the poet who is recreated by Tenor’s resurrection. Perhaps there’s more of give-and-take between ourselves and our creations than is commonly supposed. This is a paradigm of ‘constant surprises’ that any parent would be familiar with from dealing with their kids!

            Must I have more to say?
To do, to be?  Was wishing up to me?

Tenor’s words seem to have struck home with the poet, who now reconsiders his entire take on what makes meaning meaningful.

Argent star and pentecostal ghost!  It was.
The prolog past was mere evaporate because.

The poet embraces his ultimate responsibility to create his own future (and thus, from his past, his present). The ghost of Hamlet’s father has lost none of his potency to motivate and help create the living man’s understanding of his life and what he must do within that life.

The “sledding immortality” recalls Tenor’s “slalom breast” from “For Tenor Semblance, Who’s Dead.” The whole movement of “slipping us” back into “our … skins again” recalls Yeats’ famous lines about “gravedigger’s toil… but thrusts their buried men/ Back into the human mind again.” Here, the mind is not the foundation of reality it is in Yeats–here it is the more tender, temporary, living “skin” that contains our meaning. Like God, the Mind (with Platonic indifference to the body) has been exiled from this poet’s contemplations. He is either more modest or more hopeless than most spiritual writers. In this case, I’d say that the more the poet claims to have created Tenor (his “solo ghost”), the more the poet is created by his creation, made real, manifesting in life as an imaginative creator. The poet is Tenor’s heaven (“holy host”), and Tenor is the poet’s manifestation in imagination and in death. They complement each other’s incompleteness, as Jesus completed the project of God’s instantiation.

Thus we see, beyond Death's batty beam,
Is is brighter than the vim of seems.

Again, a reminder from the first poem (“beyond Death’s cut division or misty ending”), and an affirmation that life (“is”) is the supreme place of meaning, above “the vim of seems.” This parley-playing poet has some skin in the game now!

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How, in all this claustric Ought, ought I
To utter and confess my consummate
"Ow to Joy"?  Life is pain, and fidgets
As it sings.

The “claustric Ought” recalls the confinement of the coffin, where Tenor in the first poem made his confession and shared “dirty jokes” only with himself. This time, he has had the poet as an active audience. Has Tenor made an impact on his hearer? The poet appears to be determined now to celebrate life, while fearing the pain of that life. Instead of Beethoven’s hymnotic, rapturous “Ode to Joy” about the brotherhood of all mankind, the best that this ironic, modern, diminished, self- and death-obsessed poet can manage is a wincing “Ow to Joy.”

The poet is not Dr. Frankenstein, but there is an authority figure who desires to make his way into the poem–and it’s not God. “Dr. Formaldehyde in his lab-coat” is more like one of the kooky characters that populate Bulgakov’s novel The Master and Margarita. Dr. Formaldehyde is equipped with Dr. Berhens’ “icy stethoscope” from Thomas Mann’s Magic Mountain, where inner illness and morbid fascination with death from rotten lungs is transformed into a “talent.” The good doctor will leave nothing beyond the scope of his inquirey, and is determined to “quiz/All coughs, all crimes.” With echoes of the Last Judgment, the real crime, it seems to me, is to be hanging around a graveyard when you should be living life sans sackcloth.

The poet sees that the tables have turned. Now it is he, the poet, who has been consigned to the status of a storybook figure–he has been swallowed up into a “Rabelesian parable.” If he is all story now, to what degree is he still a part of life? The “inquisitive pin” of his procreational organ is still giggling! But, the poet can’t figure out what that means; its “reply” is a null “none, none,” reminiscent of Hemingway’s “nada” at the end of his short story “A Clean, Well-Lighted Place.”

"Paradise is simple as the simple dew.
Blond Life, raw, unadorned,
Is apple enough when we feel adored."

The “splendid spillages,” coming so soon after the thigh-pin, take on the suggestion of seminal fluid. So many ghostly lovers crowd this memorial chat with the poet’s shadowy self buried here! It seems that determining identity may be less imperative twenty years on from the first Tenor Semblance poem; who we are is what we do. It is the doing, and the being done to, after all, that grants its additive beauty to our mortal circumstance. When we are alive and connected, when we “feel adored,” that’s all we need to know, even about such grand subjects as Good and Evil (as the presence of the apple implies). So, if the penultimate activity of life is to kiss and be kissed (before the ultimate act if dying and frying, or dying and flying) — as discussed at the gnarly graveside in stanza numeral four–where is the girl? Enter Kate, stage left….

--Settle quick the pipping kettle, Kate,
And kiss the kittens twice.

The poet is fully distracted from his death meditations and is jolted back into action and into considerations of mundane life. He is taken almost completely out of the poem proper, and we get to overhear him in his real life, in his proper person. All the acts, all the curtains, all the images, are dropped; the show is over. And with the tea kettle and the kittens, could it get any more cozy?

                                   --Unintended
Heaven whistles wettest, when we forget

Ourselves."

“Whistles wettest” is a nice echo of the tea kettle. What we attempt and intend to do is secondary to manifest experience itself. Experience is what happens while we pursue our intended heaven: the goal, the pursuit we desire. Life is a place for our exploration, and gives us all we can get, and more than we can understand. Whoever we are, or think we are, or pretend to be, while all of that life is going on around us matters less than the fact that life is going on. This death-obsessed poem ends on an affirmative, if inconclusive, note.

Like Hamlet, the soliloquist in “Dissembling Semblance” has been undergoing a longish regime of “reality therapy.” He is gradually reconciling his life of imagination and desire (symbolized by the non-spiritual–but still non-living–stand-in character Tenor Semblance) with the mundane entrapments of negotiating the limitedness of a human life. But what, you ask, what could ever induce the plangent, punning poet’s inner-Prospero to lay aside his magnificent cloak and be content to live within the precincts of life’s “four occasional walls”? In the crib, the most fascinating object for a puling babe is not some spinning and glittering mobile of stylized stars, but a leaning-down human face–greasy nose and all. Prospero has his love of Miranda to help him “drown his book” and diminish into his humanity. The verbally profuse Hamlet is eventually reconciled to a reality where “the rest is silence,” and takes his exit from the stage in peace. But what incentive to life and littleness does our poet her possess? Ah, yes, his peeping Kate and her “pipping kettle” (a kettle at once piping hot and growing with life-possibilities like a “chicken when it’s pippin’/that has no bones” as the folk song sings). Not to mention those kissable kittens….

The name Kate calls to mind the Katherine of Taming of the Shrew–so we can rest assured that the poet’s reality will not be a bland one after the sign-off of the final stanza. And another Kate is there too, the cutie Frenchie at the end of Henry V, whom the king informs that she and he will be “the makers of custom”–and so imagination, we can feel assured, will not be completely exiled from the poet’s onward life. Indeed, the entire arc of the two poems–an extended reality vs. imagination world-wide wrestling smackdown–could be encapsulated by Yeats’ formulation:

                        The abstract joy,
The half-real wisdom of daemonic images
Suffice the aging man as once the growing boy.

The one difference of emphasis I’d point out here, though, is the decisive wish for less abstraction and more common reality that our poet settles on. The device that serves the poet best in this pursuit is his “forgetting” of himself–either as a man or as a boy. Indeed, there’s a sense in which his adopted “mirror-me” persona of Tenor Semblance is itself a form of this forgetting-therapy. The more the poet pursued himself into his creation Tenor–the less himself he was–the more of himself he could actually manage to manifest.

Well, well, is this mere paradox–or, perhaps, magic?

ENDNOTE

These notes are on the order of an author’s bare-knuckled canoodling with the muse–or his fidgety graffiti on the hind paw of the Sphinx. Here are no graven words brought down the mountain by a lighting-limbed Moses, or the knowing code-nodes that might unlock one of Thomas Pynchon’s illuminati modules. No nodal knowledge here. So, as any bartender might recommend after last call: “Take care. Beware.” Do drive your brain safely–or as safely as you can manage at dead midnight in an overloaded produce truck stuck in second as it creaks across the cracks of a lonely, frozen lake (in whose depths skeletal sailors toss their tittering bones in unspoken prophecy).

Unlike Mr. Weeks’ essay “Paddling Toward Byzantium” that followed the first of this battling pair of brotherly poems (and which of this Castor and Pollux spars more divinely, who can say?), these notes retain an air of utter incompleteness (Notes Toward a Supreme Friction, mayhaps) and deserve to be spanked–er, I mean, to be superseded— by a less authoritative, but more monarchically benign, interpretation of their intentions and achievements. Mr. Weeks, I believe, is in the next-at-bat position for this devilish task. So, Mr. Weeks, step up to the plate, the batter’s box awaits. Knock those cleats clean and aim for the bleachers, kid!

January, 2012



[1] “Pink is less pricked than pinky.” This line has several layers of puns. Here’s a sampling: “Pink,” as a color, is an embodied abstraction. Tailors also use “pinking shears” to trim loosely woven cloth (like the tapestry of our reality) and minimize fraying. As an abstraction, pink will feel the painful pricks of life less than a pinky finger will feel it. But, as an abstraction, “pink” also has a less lusty engagement with life (less “pricked” in love-making) than I have in my little pinky, as the taunt goes. In context, we see that the poet at this point in the poem, contra Tenor, feels that this “pinkness beyond the pinkness of things” is a virtue–at least of sorts. The poet may cry out, like Hamlet: “Oh, that this too, too sullied flesh would melt.”

Dec 312012
 

A foot-race to the palace at Knossos.

Water-Break

Having grown long words in fieldgrass daylong, I stepped into a wooded brook to dip Ink-worded hands into the snickering quips Offered up by the silverquick stream; I wondered just what the water had meant to mean, Whose loose stones insist the water into song. Many times I lost what footing I had felt, Suddenly cried out, or laughed in despair, By hard wet things beneath thrown over, Raw agony raised to the eloquence of a welt; And, with water in my mouth, I'd often remarked The sincerer operations of the lark, Spilling a slippery noise above taciturn rocks That break bones and never forget.

Dateline: Late May-August, 2001, Ocean Township, NJ. This was one of the loveliest (though loveless) summers of my life. I wrestled one hundred poems from heaven to the ground—and then rhymed them between the covers of a book (i.e., The Timid Leaper). One hundred poems is a cornucopia of creativity, a roar-voiced river of vividities. Timed word-for-word, this hectic spate of poetic speech approximated fours lines of polished verse per hour of wakeful attention.

Each day, I would bring my folding chair down the short staircase of the apartment I shared with my roommate, Mole, and chuck it in the backseat of my battered Ford Escort. Down a short road to a woody landscape, turning onto the pebbled pathway of what I called Sycamore Lane. There I’d park, unpack the folding chair (suitable for lawn concerts) and begin the half mile saunter through a double row of flaking sycamore trees to my “spot.”

Taking this loping stroll under the changing light of leaves stoked my mental lobes toward composition. My body’s rhythms became more musical as I shushed through the hairy grass that spattered the dusty path. When finally arranged in my splay chair, with my ball-cap tilted above my brows, I looked out at the slowly turning world with bedizened eyes half-awake to the tuneful movement of the small stream beyond a bump in the slope, and found myself entwined in the shapely pattern of the shadows cast by the innumerable leaves of the sweetly green sycamore trees.

My state was a meditative one, root and stem, and composition began with my tongue tapping time on the roof of my mouth. Time transmogrified into a type of concentrated joy, a sunbeam in a crucible lens that lit up the page pinned to my father’s clipboard. There the words, in a mixed mask of shadow and light, danced to discover their own purpose; there they coalesced and eventually pulled together in a single direction–here and there a noun or verb from the mass pounded louder and became the time-keeper of the others–a cantor arising from the mumbling congregation, eventually getting insistent as a slave-galley hortator tomping on his resounding tom-tom.

There is a smallness, a closeness to writing. The pen held pinchingly, lines and phrases whispered under one’s breath, the scribbled page adored and then, too full of its own dark mutterings, discarded–set aside for the editor’s cold eye, the mischievous insistences of his rouge inks.

But here in the sunshine air, the nocturnal owl gone to silent roost and the romantic moon nowhere to be seen, one’s mind takes on the cool invisible infinity of smooth-worn stone. Whatever is writing–like whatever is being written about–has always existed. Their interplay is tangled, sly as evolution. One is ready to listen, and to keep listening. The whispered breath is the tree’s speech, or some errant bird’s exclaiming. My focus was total, but my self was absent.

It was not until hours later, under the phony moon of a bedside lamp, that I thrilled to what had occurred under the sycamore’s tutelage. Wryly, I chuckled at my water-quick wit; stonily admired my stony stolidity. Who’s voice was this really? Somehow, while wandering away from home, this briery scribble had proceeded from my papermate pen, alien in its green inks. And yet, as I read, a connection to that earlier, meditative state persisted. The flash of a squirrel’s tail both followed and foretold the flash of my thoughts.

As I said, this was a single lovely summer, flushing to fullness after a heart-catastrophe had left me a brittle cripple in so many ways. I don’t know if I long to “get back to where I started from,” to have another extravagantly productive “summer of a hundred,” but I feel it is worthwhile to acknowledge when a mystery visits your existence. I still can’t quite puzzle it out, but whenever I look back into the still pool of memories from that warm time, I confront an essential reflection of my being that has neither changed nor aged. The way nature held me then, she holds me still. As Yeats reflects in “Among School Children,”

          O chestnut tree, great rooted blossomer,
          Are you the leaf, the blossom or the bole?

Eventually the stars were winking me to sleep–until the next day when my emergence from dream to the shaving mirror became my disappearance in my captain’s chair beneath my favorite sycamore all over again. Three months of days passed in this fashion during that lovely summer–with each day leaving behind its solemn sonnet or triple-rhyme trinket.

“Live according to your poetry,” is the instruction of every church, its vision falling like a veil over the tickle of reality. This veil often adds a beauty to prosaic existence, and lets bland consumers of myth participate in–if not the myth’s making–at least in its embodiment. During this busy summer of writing, I experienced instead a stripping away of the palimpsest of art by the ingenious innovation of the removal of the viewer. I.e., myself. My pen that summer was a purloined willow-wand, my words a shimmer fished from the stream. I hesitate to say the days were mystical, or the nights gnostic; but, something stirred then that since has slept.

I wound up designating that summer my “summer of a hundred” to myself and my friends, I was so exceedingly pleased with the knotty whatnots I was able to craft under the spell of those sycamores at that nearly abandoned park where none trespassed on the solitude of stone and wind and water and growing grass that made me so happy after the previous three years’ harrowings.

December, 2012

Dec 072012
 

Now singeth pitched praise
         of high-heaven’s Warden,
Mightiest Maker
         and His masterful mind-plans!
Works of the Wonder-Father
         who established each wonder
(Dear eternal Lord)
         and their foundations fathomed.

He earliest scraped,
         for all mankind’s sons,
The sky’s heaven-roof,
         O holy Creator;
Then made He middle-earth,
         this mankind-Warden,
Eternal Lord;
         and afterwards fashioned
Firm earth-folds for us,
         our Almighty Master.

Dec 072012
 

As I walked through the wilderness of this world, I lighted on a certain place where there was a Den, and I laid me down in that place to sleep; and, as I slept, I dreamed a dream. I dreamed, and behold I saw a man clothed with rags, standing at a certain place, with his face from his own house, a book in his hand, and a great burden upon his back (Isaiah lxiv.6; Luke xiv.33; Psalms xxxvii.4; Habakkuk ii.2; Acts xvi.31). I looked and saw him open the book and read therein; and, as he read, he wept, and trembled; and not being able any longer to contain himself, he brake out with a lamentable cry, saying, “What shall I do?” (Acts 11.37).
~~ John Bunyan, The Pilgrim’s Progress

Dec 072012
 

(A Prose Version)

Listen sweetly, for I will tell a dream–of all dreams, the best–come to me at guilty midnight, while the other voices slept, and I was wakeful.

Before me twisted and rose up a wondrous Rood, brighter than leaf-light, enveloped by beams.

Burnished as a battle-standard, it stood, lovingly covered in gilt foil of gold.

Where its root-end reached earth lay bright tangles of rivery gems; five gems as big as knuckles shone at the cross’ crux, bound tight as a dovetail joint.

Fair-formed hosts of eternal angels gazed glowingly down upon this gorgeous cross; certainly, this was no sinner’s gallows, framed for felons.

Holy spirits beheld it there, and all good men upon the earth earnestly stared, and all of God’s glorious creation circled round and cradled the wondrous Rood in its heart.

Splendid indeed rose the triumph-tree!

And I, sin-stained, a worm sore-wounded, full of faults and afeared, looked and saw the very cross of glory. Resplendently robed was the tree, shining in joy, adored and adorned in rich gold.

Gems, too numerous to count, covered the Lord’s tree like Christmas tinsel, shedding splendor in the air.

Even so, in my quiet depth of deep-night thought, through the sharp gems and glimmering curtains of wave-wrought gold, my mind perceived the old animosity of ancient evil-doers still lingering.

Indeed, I saw, on the tree’s right side, blood had begun to slowly flow.

And I, all grievy with sorrow, and troubled, and afraid, my knees weak and backward as a bird’s, felt the fear of my smallness before such a beautiful sight.

The wonderful Rood flickered before me; sometimes dark with heavy fluids, and moist to the touch, soaked to the core with dread blood; sometimes frosted with layers of treasure.

A long time I lay there, watching the tree flicker between being wounded and wealth-ridden; a long time, with my troubles upon me, and unacknowledged tears slowing flowing from my open, yet dreaming, eyes.

And then, I heard the Rood speak. This exalted and excellent tree spoke aloud these words:

Although it happened eons ago, still I recall all, and remember brightly, the day I was cut down at the dark wood’s edge….

My roots ripsawed from beneath me, my foundations foundered.

My sweet wood was broken by strong men, bent to their bending, then bound, hammered and hefted up: a cross– crafted to crucify criminals.

I, who ought to have been a shapely harp or been soothingly tooled to sing out soft songs at a summer fair, myself a fair-fashioned flute!

Hard those hands upon me, their palms unpleasant, rough-ready, raw.

Hoisted, tossed on the enemy’s shoulders, high we crested the cold hill where they planted me, placed torn root to turned soil; ungrowing, I rested as an ill man rests: feverish, distressed.

Then came the Lord. Not weary, his aspect. Not trodden-down, not bested.

Then cameth the Lord, bright-breasted, restless. With zeal he sprang up the hill, sprinting to mount me. As a knight surmounts his horse at battle-day dawn, thus bravely He came.

As a woman, worried in winter, the earth trembled. And lo, I trembled, as before the ax had bitten my haft. But I dare not bow down beneath my burden, nor burst like a rotted tree unshipworthy at sea.

His battle-standard and steed, I stood, firm from wronged roots to man-handled cross-arms. Firm, aye, though I quailed within.

Then the young hero stepped simply from His robe, stripped to nakedness before His enemies’ eyes (that was God Almighty standing there).

With easy strength and resolute look, he ascended.

Now upon the gallows was the Christ-King, brave before badness, and seen by all so that he might redeem them once and forever.

I dare not bow to earth with my burden; though He embraced me, and I trembled.

Now I was a risen cross, lifting the King of Kings, Lord of Heaven and of us, a man bruised and humbled.

Now I dare not bow down with my burden; though I embraced Him, and He trembled.

With black nails they pierced us! On me, still, the scars. Look and see. Behold them, bloody and open, wronging wounds of malice and menace.

Merrily, they mocked us, us both together; crowded rowdily below us.

Together were we tied and troubled with toilsome blood, still leaking from the man’s side after His spirit departed, flew, sent to His Father in heaven.

Woeful fate! To endure, as I endured, all there cruelly on the bare earthen mount.

I had felt the Lord of the heavenly hosts severely stretched against my grain.

Darkness came, covering with modest clouds louring the bright dignity of that good man’s corpse. A shadow went forth upon the plains surrounding, and darkness was on all the land and sky.

All creation was weeping, wracked to know our dear King’s death.

Christ was still upon the cross; his body broken, crownless and crushed.

Natheless, from afar off came many men and women eager to view the pierced Prince.

All this I beheld, bound to the Lord.

Sorrow, sorrow was great upon me; within me grievous gnashings and sadness.

Now I bowed again to the eager hands of many men; humbly bowed, happily bent down.

With faithful fervor they unbound the broken man, lifted him like a warrior from the field; with friendly hands and with brother’s tears they bore Him from His terrible torment.

Abandoned, I stood alone, drenched in dewy blood; straight nails stood out from my skin like arrows, and my wounds knew no rest.

Gently, gently they lay him down. Gently laid out his weary limbs, and washed they him.

Stood they all around his head as a human crown, gazing awhile at the silent savior, weary-limbed after His long battle.

Dug they then in clay-cast cracks of the rock, scraping sepulcher in sight of His slayers. Stone-flakes brimmed the hard earth-bank, brightened the drab dank.

At sunset they bore him in, the Lord of Victories into the cave’s clasp taken.

Misericordia they sang, all wretched together at the cave-mouth, in the early time of evening. At length, they all left, singly and in pairs, harrow-hearted, over the earth, leaving their uncompanioned Prince little company.

We three crosses stood there a long time, from our burdens unbound, weeping blood, as the congregation of stars came singly in sight, and the warrior-voices faded far over the faint grey hill.

The body within the tomb grew cool, pleasant abode of the absent spirit.

Other men returned, ragged and chained, and buried us pit-deep in the dirt ordained for our grave-holes. Dreadful, woeful, our second hewing! Dark was our dirt house.

There was I found, by the Lord’s friends’ fingers discovered; they lifted me up and adorned me as with silver samite, enwrapped me with gold foil and precious gems.

You, who dream this, hear all the evils I have endured for the Lord, endless grief experienced, pain and terror gathered close in one place.

And now, by time transformed, from that nadir I am come to glory, and men all over the face of creation honour me in every fashion, praying penitent at the sign of the cross.

In my two arms, God’s sole Son suffered for some pitiful while.

Thereby am I now to tower tall under glorious heaven! Rise I up, empowered to bring balm to all who deem me blessed, and who in awe do homage to him I held.

I, who had been since the before-times a torture, terrible and hated, am become blessed. Through me the path, the truth, liveth and beginneth for every seeker after the way.

Most blessed of all trees I became, who had been most despised and spat upon.

The Prince of All, and the high Kingdom’s mighty Master, blessed me in this as He had blessed His mother Mary, of all women the worthiest.

Take now this tale of trial, this tribulation deliver from thy sleep, for it is wholesome, a holy vision vouchsafed to thee, my beloved dreamer.

Say well these words; with weariless voice proclaim them, and with praise sustain thy saying: Upon this glorious tree, Almighty God Himself suffered trouble and torture for mankind’s sins’ sake, and the ancient deeds of Old Adam.

Here tasted He bitter death. Died He upon me.

Oh, the Lord arose then, puissant in prowess as a lion, rising to take weak humanity’s hand, to guide the guileless and grieve the guilty.

To heaven He hastened, departing far hence, past the sun’s blazing bauble.

Great God, creation’s Maker, Lord of All the heavenly host, most wise, waits above to visit His minions again, to teach mankind on the Day of Judgment.

Angels in his vanguard, He shall ride down upon us, shall voice His virtuous verdict on that last day, shall deal unto each soul its earned deserts, wages won during life’s vivid brevity.

None on that day shall stand without fear of His justice, but all shall tremble mightily in the sight of the Lord and fear His word.

He will turn to His blessed angels and ask the beauteous multitude:

‘Where is the man who will die the death, bitterly wracked, for my sake? Where is the man who will die for me, as I have died for him upon the victory-tree?’

Then those who have given their fate no forethought, and lived vain and wasteful lives, will shiver verily, and their livers blanche with cold cowardice.

For what can they say to Christ? What plea prepare on their own behalf?

Yet none need be afeared who fare forth with my best token upon his breast, or beating within it.

Through the cross come all to Christ. Here pass all paths of those who sojourn toward Heaven, directing their feet to follow that suffering man, He who goes before and prepareth a place.

There indeed shall be an abiding Kingdom for each soul who walks this wrathful world and wisheth to dwell with the Lord.”

Fervently I prayed then to the Rood, zestful in zeal, in spirit blithe, although I abideth alone in my room.

Now my spirit roused me, ravished me, rousted me, bade me race onward to my urgent task.

Full many a lonely hour had I lived before, languishing lone in my small solitude.

But now my life’s mission is made anew; hope stings me on to seek out that triumphant tree my vision vouchsafed.

Patient as a pilgrim I pursue my dream’s demand, in adoring duty I press forward so that all souls may find faith through Christ’s cross. Hear me, and hope!

Few friends have I here, among the earth’s mighty men. Long since have they left daylight’s delight, the company of cousins, and all the world’s welter of joys.

Sought they by dying the King of Glory; departed, they now reside in resplendent Heaven, abiding beside God, alight in his splendour.

Dwell they now in deathless glory, while I alone greet each day longing for the Rood’s return.

My imperishable wish is to see the Rood again as I had seen it in my dream. My dream was goodly, God-begotten its origins, though I go sin-wounded and lost through this woeful world.

Fetch me up, good Cross, to where God’s great bliss forever is; bear me hence to that place of gladness.

There sit the people of Heaven, and the Eternal Lord also beside them, seated at that bountiful feast, and singing betimes, beautiful to behold and gracious
in all manner of things.

Establish me among that heavenly throng, holy Cross; set me down amidst the saints and pour me wine and let us delight together in that ever-living splendor.

May the Lord be my friend, I pray, who suffered Sin on earth for our sake, redeeming mankind upon the tree,

Hotly He harrowed Hell, after rising, bringing blessings and bliss to those souls enduring fierce fires below the earth.

The Son in His solitude strode hellward , flying homeward triumphant, strong and sure He returned.

With singular geste He led the myriad damned back to the His Kingdom’s abiding bliss, where in high Heaven they live glad days with all of the saints and the heavenly hosts of Angels.

Thus it was in joyous company that our divine Ruler, the good Lord God Himself, came home again.

finis

Dec 032012
 
Tao #47 by Lao Tzu
Without crossing your welcome mat,
You can tour London and Peking;
Without drawing the curtain,
The Milky Way spills in your lap.
The farther out, the less within--
Therefore, sit still and be wise.
Point out the truth though you are blind,
And accomplishments will fall at your feet!
 
Hey diddle diddle,
The cat and the fiddle--
And Sandy ran away with the moon!  
 
My house, I say.   But hark to the sunny doves
That make my roof the arena of their loves
~~Robt. Louis Stevenson
Dec 032012
 
Nailing his windows shut,
I help my neighbor
Lift the plywood.
 
The old blue storm-sign
Gets spray-painted over in red:
Get lost Irene Sandy.

I have never liked to travel, having a dislike of the confusion of new scenes, but I find myself hamstrung at home as well with a deep sense of offended opprobrium at the repetitiousness of the local rituals of the Jersey Shore–beginning with Bar A and ending with the not-quite-naked strip joints like Untouchables that used to line Highway 35 up toward South Amboy.

Too lazy to travel,
I wait for the busy weather
To come knocking.

Despite this distaste for my native land, there are many quiet corners of Monmouth County that I treasure as a field mouse treasures his fluffy burrow. Indeed, it was during the occurrence of Hurricane Sandy (which changed practically the whole coastline of my state) that I first really felt the impermanence of even the big communal things that everyone is always shoving in your face–the facile fun of shore amusement parks, or the desirability of certain high-class/high-cost views of the Atlantic Ocean you can get from Rumson or Deal townships.

From the old boardwalk,
I take a last look at the sea
Before it changes.

My second-story garden hut contains books, some plants, and myself. I dragged the biggest plant inside–a palmtree that squats with his green mustachelike leaves poking over the balcony railing–making my knees creak unexpectedly.

Watering plants
With a pointy watering can
Before the hurricane.
 
Heavy with watering,
I drag the big palmtree in
Out of the rain.

The newscast flickered bright in the dim room. There was a watery holocaust on the way in the form of a Halloween “Frankenstorm” with the improbably friendly name, Sandy. All of the dynamically flowing charts of the globe had blinking red arrows pointing straight to Atlantic City; a weather-woman with perfect features would follow the blinking arrows with an even, smooth, flowing motion of her arm, ending with a cute frown at the camera. I took a long stroll in the unseasonably warm evening air, noting the suddenly colorful fall leaves that had come out in the last week, returned home, did nothing for a few hours, and then went to bed as usual.

Looking out from my condo--
A bird on its slender perch
Looks back.
 
On the windowsill,
Just before the autumn hurricane hits,
A dead bee.

The next two days went by engaged in work and poetry. I was putting together essays and stray snippets of prose–mostly to amuse myself, but also, more simply, to offer what instruction I had to offer to anyone who thought they might profit from it. An author digs his grave with words many times before he lays down upon his final page, his spine aligned with the book’s spine, Finis printed neatly on the bottom of his left shoe. The news was just as insistent as it had been the week before, with grey pinwheel swirls of the hurricane’s progress crawling across the Caribbean. I made another cup of hot coffee and hunched into my sofa.

So carefully!
My neighbor parks his truck
Under the tree that will crush it.
--So carefully!

My girlfriend wanted to stop by the day before the official start of the hurricane to hang out for a few hours and catch up on what each of our weeks had been like. We laughed a lot and ended up dancing around in my living room singing all the words to “Crocodile Rock” before she got too sleepy to drive home to South Jersey on just one cup of instant coffee.

Somehow the livingroom floor,
Usually so reserved, really enjoyed
Our dancing on it!
 
Anxious to get home
To catch the hurricane--
A quick kiss,
And no rain-hat!
 
Hurricane Sandy--
Slowly the house sucks in its breath
Before the guest arrives.

Later that same night an old poet friend dropped in. We stayed up until the moon quit buying us rounds, discussing all aspects of our mutual obsession with poetry. I think the idea of a hurricane reminded us both of how poetry had come upon us when we were young–and rushed though our lives, changing everything.

Before the hurricane,
Up all night laughing and drinking
To poetry!
 
After our pre-hurricane party
A vulnerable stack of bottles and dishes
Leans in the sink.
 
"Storm-fear"--
There's some Robert Frost poem....
Ah!  My Kindle remembers.

The next day, I woke up painfully late into a breezy overcast day. Leaves on the trees seemed to rustle for attention before falling off onto the still-green lawn. Was I getting anxious? I started pacing around the apartment in my socks, looking under stray objects that had been in the same place on the shelf for years and expecting to see–what exactly?

What else to do?
I count the handy batteries
On the refrigerator shelf.

I spent the afternoon doing many things, eventually. Going to the grocery store, getting a newspaper, writing a few last minute “stay safe” emails to friends I hadn’t called in eons, watching the kids in the neighborhood play and run, answering a mistaken doorbell ring. Owners walk their dogs quickly as the wind picks up.

On my nose,
A first bit of rain distracts me
Out of my thoughts.
 
Muddy children push
Their wooden boats
Through enlarging puddles.
 
Just before I pick it up--
A breeze makes Hurricane Sandy's portrait fidget
In the early edition.

“Clean-up in aisle four!” A clerk with a busy look ran down the aisle at the A&P pushing a mop in a wheeled bucket. Just before Hurricane Sandy hit, in the rush of moms to procure H2O for their young ones, a gallon jug of water had been spilled on the tiled floor near the nearly empty shelves. Outside the store, abandoned shopping carts piled up by Subarus as squirrels hurriedly buried a few final winter chestnuts.

Afternoon before the thunder--
For the first time
No Big Wheels roar
In the empty courtyard.
 
First evening of the hurricane,
The kids are unhappy
Being called in to dinner.

Filling the tub with potential toilet flushes was one ritual of readiness I remembered from childhood. There was always something so big about the hollow sound of drawing cold water into the bath. It seemed such a lot of water, full to the overflow vent, causing waves of coolness to lift off an agitated surface that would eventually calm its streaky brightness into the image of your own face.

Is there any reason other than a hurricane to draw such a cold bath? Even babies and dirty puppies require tepid water. I thought of the gelid end of the doctor’s stethoscope and gave an involuntary shiver as I turned the tap shut. Almost done with my prep list!

Before the hurricane
Even gets here--
A stormy heart.
 
In the rising wind--
Pages of a book
I can no longer read
Flip idly.
 
Over the shore
This first night, boardwalk lights
Keep their pink.
 
Down at the marina
Every guy-line receives
A goodnight tug.
 
Hearing yet again of Hurricane Sandy,
A small wind licks
The back of my neck.

The shared news of an on-coming storm had both myself and my neighbors chatting much more than usual. The usual recluse in his mashed-down snow cap called out: “You ready, Irish?” Then he cackled and gave a friendly wave without waiting for a reply.

As the hurricane comes on,
I stick my head out the window
And nod to neighbors.
 
First hurricane evening--
Summer fans twirl idly,
The windows thrown wide!
 
Windstorm night--
The vertical blinds
Shudder like icicles!
 
The night gale is rising--
The wind has a sound
Of tearing tinfoil.
Dec 032012
 

Anything you really, carefully examine begins to resemble everything else you have ever examined. What they have in common is you, your process of examination. There’s the famous haiku:

Fanning myself:
I watch myself wanting:
Fan, move!

This is what struck me most strongly as I began my examination of the hurricane that was to engulf the entire existence of the only world I had ever lived in. Everything around me began to take on a double meaning; the Halloween candy was wrapped in enigma and revelation.

An autumn leaf
Plastered to the kitchen window,
Trying to get dry.

Thinking I would have the long hurry-up go-nowhere of the storm to myself, I received an unexpected phone call from an old roommate. Her name is Sunny. Ironic, huh?

Evacuation orders
Unhouse thousands--
Snowflakes on damp asphalt.
 
Last minute hurricane call--
No message except to say
"Can I live with you?"

Finally, I stood staring out the window as the sun went down behind a swirl of misty grey cloud cover that had been hanging over the region for a few days already. We were all living under the overhang of Sandy’s big straw hat, and had been for some time.

An unexpected guest--
Blown into my flying scarf--
Hello, nettle-leaf!
 
Ruminating before the storm,
I find myself unavoidable:
Hurry up, Sandy!
 
Pre-hurricane trees--
Shadows enlarge and blur--
Which way will they fall?

That night, my friend moved in her cats and about 16 gallons of Evian “emergency water.” I kept waking up to scribble this or that down irritably, look out the windy window, and then pull the covers back over my head.

Rain driven in under the sill--
How the drops of water
Stay wet!

Just as I was putting a towel alongside the leaking window, something in the headlights of my evacked friend’s old Pontiac caught my eye–like a green flicker of wind–as she slipped her car into an open slot.

A single grassblade
Being itself:
A single grassblade.

Her cats carried in and settled, we were ready for the onslaught of the storm. Mostly, we watched it swirling and nearing on the TV news. My old friend in the house (safe for the moment) played sudoku on her iPad.

Feeling scared together,
NASA pics show us
Our smallness.
 
Anxious in the storm,
We eat Chinese by candlelight
And read our fortunes.

I had had a few last minute “Are you ready for Sandy?” conversations with other folks in the complex a little earlier in the day. Later, I would get up periodically through the night to check on the storm’s progress.

Interviewing neighbors--
They are cheerful, mostly,
Under wind-blown frowns.
 
Distracted faces pass--
Neighbors gone wandering
For cell service.
 
* * * *
As night comes down,
Not even my thoughts
Keep pace.

In the darkness of that first night, I felt both cavalier and concerned. Time dilated in my mind, and my fingertips tingled, as if witchcraft could be conjured by their twiddling. But, of course, nothing happened. There was only the darkness of my thoughts, and the surprising softness of the air outside that I let in through windows pulled wide-open on one side of the apartment, since there was very little rain accompanying the black rush of air that came on cool as a kiss blown by a lonely Frost Giant.

The wet balcony at 3 a.m.
Feels as narrow
As a footstool.
 
The railing shivers
In the driven rain
--So cold!
 
Even in this wind--
The skinny neighbor on his balcony
Lights up.

Once up, and wandering around my place in silent slippers, I followed my curiosity through several self-concerned revolutions of thought until I finally gave up on myself and wanted to see just what was going on in the whooshing world around me. I went down to the front door in my hand-sewn moccasins, my eyes as big and hungry as the bleak end of a vacuum hose–trying to suck in every available sight.

In the wet floodlit portico,
A squirrel chewing seeds
Thoughtfully.
 
Kittens like the dark--
What fun they have,
Attacking my feet!
 
In the lightning flash--
Unlit Ikea lamps
Spawn shadows.
 
In this strange gale
The wind is searching
For the rain....
 
Rush rush rush....
Wither wither wither?
--The wind!
 
Such a gale!
The kite falls off its shelf
Delightedly!

There’s a lightness to all things, rightly conceived. Not a lack of seriousness, so much as a spirit of un-seriousness–a playfulness in the ever-present immanence of joy just beneath the surface. Even our most hellacious heartaches are but the base notes of a vast symphony of being, whose melody delights. Would you rather be bound to the Catherine wheel of your misery, or be able to laugh at your fragility? Old age afflicts, but a whistle’s quickness lifts the heart forever.

The mind makes mistakes.
--Just so.--
We notice it.
 
The body decays--
A face drawn in dough changes
As the dough rises.
 
Death, too, is part of this--
A broken branch falls as easily
As a leaf.

Somewhere in the dark, the wind revved itself up in a series of vicious gusts–variations on a theme–wailing and whining like a hand-cranked siren. What was the wind doing, moving so awfully fast in the big dark?

Hold on roof!
The sky is asking
You to dance!
Dec 032012
 
A nameless bird
Brings nightfall, singing
An unknown word.
 
The hurricane flies--
Starlings
Grip the maple tree.

That first night of the hurricane seemed both too long and too short. Experiences were heightened by their newness, and I kept trying to expect the unexpected as the “Frankenstorm” kept bringing its magnificent indifference to bear upon my weak house. Before I knew it, a soft core of light was asserting itself to the east. There was no sun particularly, but colors began to leak back into the world–the deep greenness of a pine tree, the paleness of water on a wet slate step.

Hurricane dawn--
At the edges of the street,
Colors without sunlight.
 
Walking outside,
I hadn't expected this:
The sky's a watercolor.
 
Beside these pleasant marigolds
Of what use
Is a hurricane?
 
Waking up after a storm night--
The wind blowing in my dreams
Has been busy!

Unexpected pockets of good humor came out as I realized I might not have to put in a full day at work that Monday. I put on a pot of coffee and sat back with the Star Leger, cracking it open with a practiced flick. As a joke on the American (and NTA’s) fondness for holidays, I read that Halloween for the state of New Jersey was pushed ahead almost a full week to the following Monday. There was even some gossip about postponing the Presidential election because of the expectation of widespread power outages–and, more seriously, of canceling the New York Marathon. Ridiculous!

Halloween Hurricane--
Shingles on the lawn
Spell 'boo!'
 
NYC hurricane--
Watch out!
...Donald Trump's toupee.

We’d had some damage, but the newscast confirmed the worst was to come that night at eight, an unusual confluence of high tide, full moon, and the stormfall surge of the hurricane. Sandy’s big splash in the national media garnered a flurry of phone calls throughout the day–concerned voices without faces that were usually so wry and acerbic. I could hear the sunshine in the voices of my Cali friends, so many miles away, blowing me their happy hurricane kisses!

Late autumn wind--
The unsorted leaves fall
Unescorted.

As the day carried on, I got used to Sandy’s rising ghostlike “Ooooo”ing, and even began to assume that nothing much would happen that second night when the “triple threat” of full moon, high tide, and storm surge landfall were all scheduled for eight o’clock.

Against the window
Blue with rain....
The cat sleeps.
 
Hurricane cypress,
From exclamation point
Curls to questionmark.
 
Trees lean together,
Swaying like drunks
Drinking the wind!
 
Hurricane night--
No moon for me
To philosophize about.

“Blow you hurricanoes, crack your cheeks!” King Lear was being rerun on PBS this second night–whether by coincidence or plan, I don’t know. How bleakly Larry Olivier delivered the despairing king’s soul into my cossetting lair. How wild and blank the heath! How foolishly apt the wily fool! How tragic indeed that accomplished men of the world, men of power and knowhow like the royal Lear can be so deceived by their own energy and effectiveness. It is not pride, exactly, but ability well and often executed to a tee that tricks noble and the wicked equally. This world’s painted on panes of candy glass we race through like finish ribbons–congratulating ourselves on our victories while reality lies in stained-glass shards all around us.

I most like those things I don’t often hear from others–odd comments, rueful truths reluctantly revealed–and Sandy gave me plenty of that! Tragedy is a stranger to modern America–and that is a long and often un-remarked-upon blessing. Our animal minds are built to scan the horizon and see saber-toothed tigers, limb-rending dangers, and other such vicious threats that in our common communal American life are (more or less) absent. But a hurricane 1,000 miles in diameter is not to be ignored or brushed off. Sandy was a talkative disaster, and I spent many days listening to little else than her winds and her black, hushed mumblings. When the power cut out, all of the quibbling clocks finally agreed. To be thrown out of one’s century and back to one’s most lonely childhood, TV-deprived days is of a significance equal to the autumn change of leaves, the aging of one’s thoughts, the limited energy that a single organism can bring to life–which is but the boring boing and unwinding of a crimped chemical entropy clock–at best.

After all those long slow strolls--
Who knew the boardwalk
Was a surfboard!
 
In the dark
The hurricane
Gets louder.
 
Invisibly,
A neighbor says hello
Behind his lantern.
 
Pitch black,
Howling gutter-rattler--
To bed as usual,
Glasses on the nightstand.
 
Haiku fall--
Leaves from a hidden tree
I hadn't noticed.
 
Right around midnight--
A half-dozen blown transformers
Blaze black clouds sun-orange.

Now was our first time properly alone as host and guest. We each let out an involuntary “whoo-hoo” when the lights clicked off. Then there was some excited rushing about for lanterns, and the selection of the night’s candles: Scented or not? Fat and rosy, or thin as a whisper?

Stories of other hurricanes poured from us as the wind raced beyond the open screen–for it was a strangely rainless gale in our small corner of the storm. Sunny had the best tales, having lived in The Highlands for over a decade with its low-to-the-water business area and its uppity-high safe houses painted a crazy-quilt torrent of poorly-chosen colors. During one particularly fluid nor’easter, Sunny had run outside to reverse her car onto higher ground, with bread-bags and sandals on to keep her feet dry–and was nearly floated out of her driveway into the flood!

Hand-cranking the radio,
DJs chuckle at the hurricane
From far away.
 
From the dead fridge,
A half-frozen tropical popsicle
Tastes like sunshine.
 
Hurricane beer--
So warm and
So good!
 
Watching pipe smoke
In the hurricane....
Watching pipe smoke....
 
Putting away my pipe,
I keep my lighter out
Beside the candles.
 
For a second night,
On both sides of the window
--Just as dark.

Anticipation magnifies any experience. And we had been caught up in a warp speed bubble of hype about Sandy. I wondered when the couch would fly out the screendoor like a magic carpet and kidnap me up to heaven to kiss the very lips of the wind! But, despite my geared-up fancy, I found the reality of the storm a changeful enough challenge. What’s real may lack something in imaginative exultation, or excess–the piling up of improbabilities until we giggle or our eyes go wide with disbelief, but reality has a way of stretching, detail by detail, our thoughts until they match the actual matrix of things. With the lights out, I thought, no one sees our happiness. Like earthworms coring out the soil so that, unknown to their small blind minds, other roots may delve more easily, so we dive into reality–and by simply participating create more than we can imagine.

Not too bad--
Alone with my thoughts
Beside this candle.
 
Without a nightlight,
I reach outside my window
And click on the moon.
 
Quick, fireflies!
Help me pick up
This evening's heavy darkness.
 
Such noise outside!
Hurricane candles
Burn silently.
 
Sirens
Through the windstorm
Sound red.
 
All night in the hurricane
Words blow about loudly
As trash cans.

The night came and went. What had been wished for or feared either materialized or dissipated like a snuffed candle’s smoke….

Even with all these troubles
The trash man rolls through
Politely at 7 a.m.
 
Joking barefoot on the porch
With cigarettes and cold coffee--
If only we knew how bad it is!
 
Without power,
Many more apartments
Lift their shades.
 
The late shrub-blossom
Tips, spills onto my face--
Yesterday's hurricane.
 
Dogs pull their owners,
Picking up hurricane sticks--
Wet and happy.
 
Trees after the storm--
Only now do I see
How patiently they were waiting!